Saturday, March 16, 2019

Missing The Mark: The Beast Is In Control

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So I get approached by a gender confused possibly FTM identified person on FB, who is from Peru. She tries to gravel with me, informing me that I appear angry and that Christians need to teach about Gods love. Well, first of all, I am a follower of Yeshua, I don’t much like labels, have been living by labels most of my life,  therefore I am done with that. I do share many beliefs with my brothers and sisters in the Christian faith, but I don’t want to be labeled a Christian, because not all Christians follow the teaching of Christ the way that I feel should be followed. I have been reading my Bible, and also started reading the Nag Hammadi Scripters, I am seeking my Father and want to live the remainder years according to his laws.
She asked me what led to my change and why am I going against the trans community? I answered, the trans community in and of itself, are the ones that created my change in how I viewed the whole situation. The list for this is a mile long, no one is ever happy, and I find it offensive on how they find it appropriate to force this on everyone.  They badger the feminists and the Christians for disagreeing with their trans ideology. Yet, it’s so funny, how they can’t see what they themselves do, yet they love to point fingers and ram their views down everyone’s throat.


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I proceeded to tell her, that after 16 years of living as a trans man and 22 as a lesbian, a total of 36 years in the LGBT lifestyle, I find that there is no true happiness on either road nor is there any true functionality based on how my life turned out and what I see from others. I can’t and I won’t make a blanket statement, I have been known to do so, and have been shamed for it,  but I can say that what I have experienced and seen is it does not work. People become homeless, lose their jobs, family, children, and friends, they get ridiculed by society,  some turn to drugs, alcohol and are promiscuous, getting AIDS and other venereal diseases.

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The lifestyle does take a toll on people. Now I know, many hate to see the word lifestyle attached to their preferences, however, if we are honest, and I hope we can be, the definition of lifestyle goes as follows:” the way in which a person or group lives, a way of life, a way of living, a manner of living, that is not considered the “norm”. A typical scenario is a man and a woman, they reproduce and the cycle continues. Furthermore, the definition reads the habits, attitudes, tastes, moral standards, that together constitute the mode of living of an individual or group. who partake in an unhealthy lifestyle choice; lifestyle advertising; etc. Note I am not judging, just pointing out facts, truth and observation are not judgment or hate. We need to stop gaslighting and intimidating people who do not agree with you. It does not work and only makes people angry and want to rebel against you further. 

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Now lets really dive into this, shall we? Most gays and lesbians come from a dysfunctional home or at least a home with parents who were not willing to understand that their son or daughter was born different. Now different does not mean born in the wrong body, or that you need to be attracted to the same sex because you don’t feel like a regular boy or girl. Usually, the shaming, sexual abuse, lack of parental communication and or support, can lead us in the path of experimentation with the same sex. For women seeking the affection of one’s mother, who at times lacks the skill to be as we saw fit, this in no way means our mother are bad mothers, it means that as a child with neurological and psychological needs we needed more. There are many factors that figure into this sexual and gender anomaly none of which are being addressed, and instead pushed along by a dysfunctional system that does not have your best interest.  We can blame an overly demanding Father, leading us in a path of perfectionism, which creates a slew of problems including our own self worth and lack of self-esteem issues.
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But to claim that we are born this way is a false claim. We develop coping skills based on our surroundings, based on our treatment and based on how we see the world. Our brain is very plastic and adapts, changes and creates scenarios as it sees fit. Mothers mold their infants for the first 5 years, in addition, if a child has an influx of androgen or lack there off, their mannerisms may take on a more feminine or masculine approach, however, the molding of the parents also make a massive difference to how a child presents. But again this does not mean you are born wrong or need to have sexual relations with the same sex.

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The sexual attraction is lead by how a person feels they fit into this world or based on the traumas we have endured. You must be honest with yourself, did you rebel when your mother pushed on you the more feminine things, when you were experimenting with more boy type toys or clothing, this is normal for a child to experiment, if a parent places too much emphasis on this, it will make the child rebels and hence the beginning of sexual and gender confusion begins. If you were sexually molested, you may have difficulty letting your guard down with men, the triggers from the molestation need to be worked on to free yourself from the aversion you have created.
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In my humble opinion, no one is born gay or trans, we are born with personalities and we are traumatized throughout our youth and we, therefore, cope accordingly and use poor coping skills to get along with life. There are many gays and lesbians who have dropped the lifestyle and are now living happy lives as heterosexual or asexuals. There are many detransitioners who are living as the sex they were born as. I am here as a survivor of both thinking I was a lesbian and then a trans guy, to tell you, this was not my path to take, but it was placed upon me due to many circumstances that I faced growing up. I am glad that I was able to work through it all, and I am here to say that you too can heal. Open your heart to healing, let Father in, and he will do the rest. You must do the work first, however, carry your cross, heal from your childhood traumas, and keep the communication with your heavenly parent. What do you have to lose? Are you afraid of healing, is this lifestyle so important to you? What would you be without it? The ego will take you down to the pit, it will destroy you and it will lie to you, all to gain control over you.

Till Next Time

Maritza

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