Relationships and Healing

My parents divorced and I am now left to pick up the pieces and the start of a new life.  I had so many relationships, trying to find my identity and place in the world. All relationships were with females, yet, I could not be placed in a box, was I butch or was I  fem? I could not find the answer to that riddle, nor did I care to fit in any box. Fast forward many years and I found myself involved with a bisexual female whom I ended up transitioning with, and married for 10 years.  Life was good, I became a fierce advocate for what I thought at the time was the right path.

I since have changed the way I think, and have gotten to know many in the trans community. I no longer see life in the eyes of gender, I see life as a learning to tool, and gender just another tool of division for the masses.  Violet and I divorced, remaining friends, but realizing that I needed more, I continued in the quest to find love and to find myself.  I believe that many in the trans community are trying to do the same, except they get caught in the turmoil of wanting others to see them, instead of just seeing themselves. They try so hard to fit into a gender box, feeling they belong, just like a teen joins a gang to feel a sense of family and normalcy. But what is normal, why are humans so broken and their search to find happiness leads them into destruction of everything they built and loved?

If you listen to the narratives and really unfold the life of many in this community, you will find a common theme, brokenness, hurt, some sort of trauma, be it sexual abuse, religious dogma, not fitting in the gender they where born as, because of coarse they, did not make it as a "man" or a "woman", so they must be the opposite gender, right?  Because they "feel" trapped, "feel" wrong, so they need to fix it?  Well the body is not the problem, it is how they view the world, and how they "feel" they can't fit in, so escape is the only answer.

I find that until a trans person stops living in denial, and accept reality, they will continue on the vicious cycle they have started. It destroys everyone around them, and themselves. They can't ever find peace, and will continue to leave a destructive path, wherever they go.

Now, where am I in the scheme of things? Well, I no longer which to fight with my heart and head. I no longer wish to battle with anyone, I just want to be and be free, and I find that I cannot be free living a life that the Universe did not intend me to live in.  I am speaking for myself so before I get all the haters jumping down my throat as many have in the past, I want to say that this is my journey, my thoughts and my life. I no longer wish to poison my body with unnatural hormones that do not belong inside of me. I no longer wish to pull the wool over anyones eye, I just want to live and live in a place where I don't have to force the world to see what I want them to see, I just want to be me, no labels, no boxes, just me.

So anyways, the time to heal is now. It has been a long and tiring road, what lies ahead is lots of uncertainties, but I am ready for whatever comes my way. I am a woman, always have been, always will be. For those that are claiming womanhood because they "feel" they are, I can only say this to you, feelings has nothing to do with who you are, we can't just feel we hate something, so therefore I will be something else. Biology is biology which ever way you slice it. Express away is all I have to say, but make sure you are aware of who you are, and try not fall into the trap of delusion, because in the end it is you, you will hurt, and that is a hard pill to swallow when the years pass and you have to face you in that mirror.


To be continued.......

Why Believe The Liars?

Sexology's war on Transgender Children

Andrea James as well as many autogynephellic men are in constant need of twisting truth to get their point and agenda across. Why would anyone believe these chronic liars as they use the faces of innocence to get their message acrosss. Andrea paved the way for facial reconstruction on men to look like women, he was arrested for posting stolen pictures of Dr. Michael Bailey's 9 year old daughter with obscene captions and claimed the girl deserved it.

Having been the target of these self serving individuals via threats, foul language and lies, I can't understand how they would even have any clout when they speak or write. Everything based around them is filled with vitriol, hate and lies.  The latest attempt to transition children is the claim that reparative therapy led to the death of Leelah Alcorn when in fact, what led to his suicide was the pressure from these Trans gestapos pushing their trans agenda all over the map. There straw man arguments are not only ludicrous but filled with gaps.

These individuals tactics includes digging information, downloading pictures placing captions full of lies and offensive wording all to try to discredit the truth being spread. Sending death threats and vulgar language use to try to intimidate the person is just one of the many tactics these violent men use. All techniques that not only show the lack of professionalism in their approach, but showing how really messed up they truly are, and if anyone is to be charged with phobic behavior, is them.

These Trans activists need to be stopped dead on their tracks, and no longer allowed to intimidate those that do not agree with their trans narratives and lies.

Andrea who are these experts you claim deem reparative therapy unethical? Possibly those pushing drugs and procedures? There is a trans mafia on the horizon, pushing and brain washing the population to believe these autogynephilles and their lies.

Just like a political campaign is filled with dirty laundry and thought out demeaning lies, these men will stop at nothing to push their Trans agenda and will destroy or attempt to, anyone that gets in their way. I say let us stand up against these individuals and stop these needless transing of our children.

On A Creepier Note

https://www.facebook.com/rachel.london.31?fref=ts

Can someone tell me what is the fascination with rabbits and trans females are all about? I have found these disturbing pictures on the pages of several trans women, and can't help but correlate sexual fetishes and mental disturbance with them.

These pictures were found on Rachael Michele Hilgerts FB page

Frankentein or Man?

In the quest to live a fantasy, a once beautiful girl has destroyed every aspect of beauty and reality that made her, her. Many say, I was never female, but who and what gives you the right to say what you were not? You mother carried you 9 months in her wound, they named you, loved you, and provided for you through out the years. You were special, different, a you that cannot be duplicated in a trillion life times. Yet, on a whim, your mind after seeing something that you thought was you, you heard someone say one day, have you thought about being a man? You read countless of testimonials on line, watch countless of you tube videos where these once beautiful women, are now these erroneous "men".  

You have destroyed your body, are infected with a hormone that does not belong in your veins, you have lost all touch with reality, your feelings now buried deep in the abyss and sand, no where to be found, only your fantasy is loud and profound. I beg you to wake up and realize what you have done, stop this madness from taking place, don't let the children live this disgrace. Do the right thing, wake up from this awful dream, and return to your roots, be part of the solution and do not continue these horrible delusions.


The disease that has taken over your mind will destroy your soul and body, stop while you still can, make peace with who you are, stop tearing up your life and thinking that this is happiness, the quest is eating you up, tearing you down and destroying you from the inside out. You are who you are, we can't ever change that.

Trans Mafia Silences Everyone While Pushing Their Agenda

It's pretty sad to see what is happening around us. The oppressed seems to have the upper hand while calling everyone that disagrees with them Transphobe, haters and murderers.  People who do not go along with their narrative are being shamed and ostracized, especially those in the medical community.

Well guess what I am calling their bluff and I am encouraging everyone to speak up. The time is now for those who do not agree with the trans narrative to let their voices be heard, don't be afraid or let these individuals intimidate you, they are disgruntled humans, who are very brave behind a keyboard, but lack the courage to live their lives as their true self. Yes that's right, they throw around their drama, talking about suicide and bully their way into politics and try to make everyone else feel like they are the bad guys, while the bad guys are actually them.

These trans females with money and influence have managed to control WPATH while creating the rules of transitioning and are using children to push their agenda while creating the picture of the sweet innocent child vs the old fetish, autogynephelliac model.   They are calculated and very narcissistic.

According to Margaret Wente from the Globe and Mail,  The new rush to turn little Jason into Janey, or Sally into Sam, is generally regarded (in the media, at least) as progress – proof of what a tolerant and progressive society we’ve become. But what if it’s just another fad? What if the radical step of changing genders isn’t always the right answer for a child’s emotional distress – especially when that child is only 10 or 6, or 3?

They are programming the public to believe that transgenderism is the new normal and if you go against it you are deemed a hater and transphobe, what a notion. According to Dr. Bradley these children have significant illness, suffering from anxiety and other serious traumas, which are being ignored and instead the least of their problems gender dysphoria is being placed in front of the line.

These medical providers who are being cautious and are looking at the bigger picture are not being heard, instead they are being pushed aside. There needs to be a voice of reason, we need to stop this madness before it's too late.  Under the pressure to be politically correct we are ignoring facts and letting the loud mouth activists intimidate us all. I say let us stand up against these monsters who are only thinking about themselves and sacrificing our children. The time for change is now.