The Hurt Armor

So many of us with gender dysphoria are good at eliciting validation, we are quick to hurt others as we hurt. There is a list of complications and behavioral issues that come with the territory. Many prefer to sweep things under the rug and internalize and attempt to ignore. These issues will return and bite us all in the ass.

How to deal with the elephant in the room? First of all, we need to understand our feelings, own them feel them, then let them go. Holding on to negative emotions will only hurt your progress of gender development. Many fail to accept that people who are born one sex cannot be another and technically as society sees it they can’t. However seeing that we are all born with the ability to be one gender or another, I would have to say we can. The battle between different groups and their political ploy will continue until everyone learns to respect each other’s views and try to understand the reasons behind our plight and needs.

I wanted to add that Testicles are made of the same tissue as ovaries, men can grow breast, and a clitoris is an underdeveloped penis. There are definitely lots of loopholes in these matters and lots of research to be done, then there is the spiritual realm of it all which can explain a lot of our feelings and behaviors, but thats another article all together.

I know I have gone back and forth with this and it is all due to my own internal battles, wanting to please others and continuing the same self-loathing paradigm I  have followed since childhood.

There are people who are not really dealing with GD, although it may mimic and present as such, the sad reality is that their woes have nothing to do with gender but other issues that need resolve.

I don’t want to focus on others I have done this for way too long in attempts to ignore my own baggage. I want to speak about my experience and if others see a resemblance and feel my words may help them, then great, my blog is now becoming a self-reflection and my journal.

Today is Friday, dam the days fly by, it seems as we age as time goes faster, where does it go? I am excited about the new regimen we are on, the supplementation regimen we are about to embark on. Natural herbs have been around way before big pharma and our species has survived. The way things look now, with all the synthetic heart attack causing and cancer creating substances, our survival is in question.

So first let me talk about Suma Root, this wonder root has some big claims to make and I am willing to give it a try.  https://www.indigo-herbs.co.uk/natural-health-guide/benefits/suma

I am going to be diving in deeper in future posts, but here are some pictures so I can journal how I look like, I am now 5 days on Dhea and fenugreek herb.

Lynna my wife will be journaling her progress but all I can say that 5 days on her regimen and wow.

This can be done naturally and in a health-conscious manner.

notice the hair growth on my once bald spot

5 days using a breast pump and fenugreek 

I wanted to add that dealing with one’s emotions and processing it in an honest manner will get you further ahead in your journey, using natural means will get you there in the right frame of mind.

Till Next Time

Discover The Inner You

I will post my new blog entries on Word Press here is the latest link of our latest conclusion on gender and gender changes https://maritzacummings.wordpress.com/2016/08/15/discover-the-inner-you/

Self Reflecting Bug

In reality when people fight against a particular cause or person, they are actually fighting the demons they deal with, within themselves on a daily basis.  My transition was all about hating parts of me that was made to feel undesirable and unwanted. The upbringing and stereotypical format we as women are use to contend with, leads us to become that which we hate, and run away from that which we are. I see all these movements waving a hate flag, making everyone the enemy and in reality doing much of nothing but endless void voices without action or real cause. 

I fought my femininity for the longest time and only wanting to feel my masculine parts that constitutes a part of me. I feel so much need now to embrace the sacred feminine in me. I want my long hair, my soft hairless skin, a body that moves swiftly and gingerly through this world. I want more than anything to feel that gentle nature that I fought hard to get rid off, because I didn't want to be hurt by others in the end. That fear only leads to hurt, not only self but others. We really do not need to battle, battles are destructive and in the end hurts not only your oppressors but yourself as well. 

Take time to reflect, to feel the pain, own it, understand it, then push it away. Forgive and forget, because just the mere memory is damaging. How many women live in fear of rape because they were once raped or molested, if you hold on to that, the damage will follow you for the rest of your life? Trust me freeing yourself from that is so powerful and healing. If you hold on to it, it will continue to harm you and others around you, you will not allow true love in your heart and will bring more of the same pain into your life.

Take the time to heal, be present and notice your every thought. Are you constantly angry? Are you always thinking someone is going to hurt you or that you are entitled? Let go of those thoughts free yourself from that prison. There is no one out to get you, the world is your oyster and everyone in life there to love and help you. Create this reality and watch your world change.

Woman are not a commodity for a political movement, women are part of humanity which has another component. We need each other to make this world go round and to make life happen. Men are just as important for the survival our species and are just as much of a victim as we are. Remember you can't wash one hand without another.  

Love you all, but love yourselves too

Ritz

Breaking Down Gender Dysphoria

So what is this condition that all of a sudden has swept our world? Why all of a sudden are our youth, children and middle aged adults claiming to be born in the wrong body? What an interesting concept and illusion. A person who has raised children, lived happily married and showed no signs of femininity is claiming to be a woman? They claim to have felt this way from a very young age, yet no one had a clue? Now I have been called a conspiracy nut for claiming many strange happenings in our world since my awakening back in 2008, I won't get into all my beliefs on this blog entry today, but lets just say I don't believe our history, the stories we have been told about our creator, and that we are just born to then die and be a slave to this system, there has to be more than meets the eye. My beliefs are deep and out of this world, and I believe that this whole Trans agenda has not just happened out of coincidence.


As I wrote on my blog entry yesterday, many men are being de masculinized and are claiming to be the opposite sex, women are wanting to be men and everyone is quite confused. Don't get me wrong, there have been two spirited people through out history and many people have chosen to express themselves freely through out life, but this whole medicalization of gender, has gone way too far.


So what is Gender Dysphoria or should I say Gender Identity Disorder, notice that the movement created the change from a mental issue to more of a biological etiology, wonder why? Lets break down this massive cluster one piece at a time. A person claims to have a different body then that what their brain identifies. That is impossible, brain and body are the same, brains are not gendered but created through our experiences and stimulations. There is no such thing as a male liver or heart, you get the picture. Society has pushed a feminization of men and have really taken away a true right of passage to adult hood and now we have what we clearly see today. You guessed it, a human that is not capable of fending for itself, dependent on the system and unable to think for themselves. Men don't have the actual gusto they had in the past to change or revolt, and women have had to step up to the plate. Now I am not saying anything derogatory here, so please lets not make it into a political fight about men vs women and so on. Its just a simple observation of the facts of life.  I believe men and women are equal or should be, and everything does not rely on gender or roles. Humans have a variety of personality, and the system has created sheep and now are herding them into their pen.

The fear of being rejected for being true to yourself creates falsehood, hence the world we live in, everyone wants to be someone or something else.  All these individuals that pay droves of money to change their face, their genitals and total appearance to be something they are not and never will be are in need of real help; sex is not negotiable or changeable. Why can't they be brave enough to be a man who is feminine and eclectic, instead of claiming to be born in the wrong body and now a female or visa versa. Our world has created neurotic individuals who will do anything to escape reality. How can anyone fear their gender or dislike who they were born as? That is ridiculous and frankly beyond belief.  The truth is we live in a world that loves fair tales, science fiction and magic tricks. Gender Dysphoria is nothing more than an excuse to escape who you are, to follow through with all your body dysmorphia needs and basically disfigure who you once where. Let us not feed into this new fad and craze and let us be true to ourselves, because if we keep this up, force sterilization of our youth will bring an outcome that those on top of the pyramid want, population control.

 

Transsexualism Is An Addiction

When we step out of the normal balance of life there are many things that happen. One of these things is called imbalance, the typical state of disease. The world we live in is filled with synthetics, the behavior we engage in is unnatural and the things we do and crave are very abnormal. With in this abnormality there are things that have become common and seen as normal. The side effects of our behavior create addictions, which leads to more addiction, then shame, then more addiction, it is quite the vicious cycle.

Addiction comes in many forms and there are genetic factor behind it, it never really leaves you, it just takes on different forms.  I have always had a an addictive personality, my father has it, and I believe my grandfather did too.  Lets say that I have lived my life chasing happiness, getting myself in all sorts of trouble but have had the sense to stop doing things that were dangerous to my health, that is, once I saw that I was in danger. One of the my addictions was the obsession with loosing weight and looking good, this got me into bodybuilding, which lead me to the use of ergogenics that spiraled into another addiction called transsexualism.

The worse kind of addictions are the kind you allow to take over your life, the ones that destroys everything in its path, the one that makes you love it, more than you. You know, the addiction that will get you to steal, lie, and leave everything behind, including putting your health in jeopardy. Yes, that pretty much sums up what transgenderism does to you, if you don't believe me, just read through the countless Face Book pages, they all have the same narratives, from those who are caught in this addictions grip. Nothing matters, but becoming that gender you think you are.  Selfie after selfies, procedures after procedure, broken hearts and loss after loss, with the outcome being emptiness, depression and further suicide, for once the addict finds out that their delusion is nothing more than a pipe dream, reality sets in and devastation takes over.

Take a look at the very similar behaviors of individuals in the trans community. They all have the same things in common, body image issues, obsessive nature, anxiety, anger, lack of coping and social skills and not to mention being able to deal with reality.  Even after transitioning these characteristic follow them, with a few reprieve in behavior, only to return. The only way to fight these demons, is to face them, to realize that there is nothing wrong with your body, that it is your need to belong, and in the quest of belonging you do whatever it takes to get there. The obsession with changing gender takes center stage and like a run away train, you will not stop till the train crashes, taking with you hostages that did not sign up for the ride.

Only an addict believes that their drug of choice is good for them and will make them happy, they defend it and honor it, for it is their delusion, that transitioning is what is right for them and makes them happy. It doesnt matter that there is no actual objective reasoning for their plight, only living out a fantasy which they hold on to for dear life.

As an addict to another, please realize that this time, this addiction has taken you way too far. It is not worth losing it all, because in the end biology is none negotiable and all you have done is destroyed a wonderful human being, who is loved and missed by those you left behind.

Hello my name is Maritza Cummings, and I am a recovering transgender addict.

Trans Mafia Silences Everyone While Pushing Their Agenda

It's pretty sad to see what is happening around us. The oppressed seems to have the upper hand while calling everyone that disagrees with them Transphobe, haters and murderers.  People who do not go along with their narrative are being shamed and ostracized, especially those in the medical community.

Well guess what I am calling their bluff and I am encouraging everyone to speak up. The time is now for those who do not agree with the trans narrative to let their voices be heard, don't be afraid or let these individuals intimidate you, they are disgruntled humans, who are very brave behind a keyboard, but lack the courage to live their lives as their true self. Yes that's right, they throw around their drama, talking about suicide and bully their way into politics and try to make everyone else feel like they are the bad guys, while the bad guys are actually them.

These trans females with money and influence have managed to control WPATH while creating the rules of transitioning and are using children to push their agenda while creating the picture of the sweet innocent child vs the old fetish, autogynephelliac model.   They are calculated and very narcissistic.

According to Margaret Wente from the Globe and Mail,  The new rush to turn little Jason into Janey, or Sally into Sam, is generally regarded (in the media, at least) as progress – proof of what a tolerant and progressive society we’ve become. But what if it’s just another fad? What if the radical step of changing genders isn’t always the right answer for a child’s emotional distress – especially when that child is only 10 or 6, or 3?

They are programming the public to believe that transgenderism is the new normal and if you go against it you are deemed a hater and transphobe, what a notion. According to Dr. Bradley these children have significant illness, suffering from anxiety and other serious traumas, which are being ignored and instead the least of their problems gender dysphoria is being placed in front of the line.

These medical providers who are being cautious and are looking at the bigger picture are not being heard, instead they are being pushed aside. There needs to be a voice of reason, we need to stop this madness before it's too late.  Under the pressure to be politically correct we are ignoring facts and letting the loud mouth activists intimidate us all. I say let us stand up against these monsters who are only thinking about themselves and sacrificing our children. The time for change is now.